Some people have noticed my lack of presence recently so I've decided to take the time to give a little update.

I am alive, I am well and I'm mostly healthy. About two months ago my brother attempted to commit suicide and since then life has been a little different for me. Things I thought were important are no longer so meaningful and I am disappointed in myself for getting so caught up in the other things that I failed to see what was going on with him.

I've been spending most of my time with my family and since I'm not in school and am currently unemployed I've been with my brother a lot and taking care of him or at least doing the best I can under these circumstances. I'm physically and emotional exhausted a lot of the time since I feel I'm the only one in the family really doing anything for him. Although I often think about the wonderful people I've met on LJ and wish I could spend more time with you, I just can't seem to find a good balance and if I had to choose, I would drop everything in the world to make sure he gets better.

I still think of the boys (lawsuit be over soon please!) and listen to them everyday as my therapy when I get a moment alone and I think about all the fics I still need to finish but haven't found the drive to continue. I hope soon things will get back to some normalcy and I can start to manage both parts of my life in harmony but until then I can only give what I can.

I wish everyone a happy holidays and during this time of thanks please remember what is important in your life.

Please know, I miss you all!

What you may ask...

( knitting :D )

list seven habits/quirks/facts about yourself.
tag seven people to do the same.
do not tag the person who tagged you or say that you tag whoever wants to do it.

( The Big reveal )

Because I want to know my f-list a little better the following are being tagged:

brighton_girl
melodykai
insomoleptic
sin_delight
whosthat
yuukihitohira
ibythetide

Leave me a comment saying, "Interview me." I will respond by asking you five questions. You will post the answers to the questions (and the questions themselves) on your journal. You will include this explanation and an offer to interview someone else in the same post.

Questions by sin_delight

( Q&A inside )

So, after feeling so crappy with all the drama in the K-Pop world, I spontaneously jumped in the car with my sister and drove to the beach for the night.

( Mini escape into paradise )

2PM lost their leader due to psychotic Koreans who dug up 4 year old myspace shit talk! He fucking bowed and apologized at the airport. I don't even know 2PM or heard any of their music but even I am heartbroken and kind of want to cry because of this.

Now My wonderful Kim Hyun Joong (Jihoo in BOF) has been diagnosed with H1N1/Swine Flu virus!

And my boys are going back into court on Friday.

I think I'm going to take the rest of the week off... I can't handle this.

Title: Secret Ramblings
Pairing: Changmin/Yunho (broken), JaeChun BFF-ery
Genre: Angst
Rating: PG-13
Summery: Changmin wants to be happy.
A/N This is a series comprised of secrets. A collection of disjointed stories that have nothing in common but the fact that they all share a secret.

Secret 01 - Changmin/Yunho

So for those Changmin fans out there SilentFire has begun it's second wave. So please visit the community (banner linked) and enjoy the delicious fics that are dedicated to one spacial little guy. Wherein the likes of YooMin/MinChun, HoMin, JaeMin (I'm sure) MinSu (possibly) will be available for all to read! And the best part is... it will not have MinFood *kills pairing* We hold Changmin in far higher regards than to pair him with food.

Also! Some News: I have created a community itisonlylove mostly for readers who've been adding my journal without asking, so I'm left to assume it's to read my works. From now on I will be posting all fics to the community, of course utilizing hug______ and seuki as well. So please, for those of you who added to read the fiction... you can just add the comminuty. Soon, I may be friends locking this journal since as of late, I've really wanted to vent and such but with people I don't know reading... it's a little weird. You understand :-)

Title: Drink For You
Pairing: Yoochun/Changmin
Genre: Angst, Romance
Rating: PG-13
Summery: When Yoochun gets drunk, Changmin reaps the benefits?

Drink for You

I had a dream I submitted a story into a fanfiction community and the moderators told me to rewrite the summery, then proceeded to tell me all my stories were the same and unsuitable.

To say the least, I think I'm kind of broken hearted about it and it makes me wonder...

So this was an idea from tvfxqluvz02 per her request. It's the beginning of what I hope will be an interesting series.

This is a new pairing for me so I'm a little nervous!

I hope I did the idea justic.

Enjoy

Title: Happiness is a Warm Gun
Pairings: Yunho/Changmin
Rating: PG-13
Warnings: Angst
Genre: Drama, Romance
A/N: Although it sounds like an ending, it's just the beginning

( Prologue )